Today Was...

Today was one of those days where I just want to throw my hands up in the air with frustration. Not just with Pride today, but everything. These past few days I have noticed I've been a little emotional, I brake into tears at the most simple things. It all started with last night... I woke up at 4:00 from a scary dream, and everytime I closed my eyes I dreamed the same scary thing. I have a huge fear of dams and getting sucked under and stuck, weird huh? I know, but I've been terrified of drowning ever since my best friend, my dog Puca drowned. I LOVE to swim and I'm really good at it, I'm not afraid of drowning, its just the thought of being 'trapped' terrifies me. I geuss its just one of those weird phobias that people have.
Then I got frustrated with Pride because he wouldn't lope 4 circles without braking gate, by the time we got done he was breathing really hard and sweating and that was only one side. Not to mention, I lost a degree of trust. He wasn't very comfortable around me today, I think he knew I was edgy and emotional.
I'm tired of track. Our track coach makes us sprint 2 miles (we have brakes) every day, but won't let us work on jumping or throwing because she doesn't know how. It makes me mad, because I really don't like running and I'm exellent at throwing and jumping. When I get home I usually take and work on those by myself. Districts is on Wednesday, I can't wait for track to be over! :) I work 1 hour after practice everyday on discus, and I've won every track meet so far. So I think I will take first in that. Also our girls medly team will come in first, we are 3rd in the state right now and no one in our district is even close to our time. Another first. I think I can atleast take 2nd or 3rd in triple jump, I'm not that great at that because I don't have a sand pit at home so I can't actually work on the jumping part. I only strengthen my legs with workouts. Then I'll run the 100, which I'm not that great at it, I probably would do better at the 200, but I run the 400 in the medly and it takes it out of me. So rather than not running an open race, I decided I would atleast go for third in the 100. I'm sure we will dominate the track meet, we train 10 times harder and longer than any other track team. We have less than half the kids the other teams have, but most of us win everything we're in. I'll post more Wednesday and tons of pictures.
I'll be bringing home the medal!!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for me...
Kaylee